In addition to this early-onset monster I am dealing with, I am also a diabetic. As such, I am on several medications including insulin, not just insulin, but insulin several times a day.
Yeah, it scares me thinking that I might over-dose my insulin or forget to take it, but so far I don't *think* that has happened. Of course, I can't be sure at this point, but to this point, my blood sugar readings seem to be within the norm.
In this digital day and age, there are so many apps and tools to help a failing memory, the problem is that I forget sometimes to either
A) Download said apps and tools
B) Forget to set reminders/timers/notifications
LOL it would be really quite funny if it wasn't so sad and scary.
What makes me take pause and think that I needed to post this aspect of dementia is noticing that I was running out of one of my meds. I pinched my arm hard ( sort of like tying a string around your finger) and headed to the computer to refill the offending script.
I loaded up my pharmacy website and immediately noticed that this particular med was not eligible to be refilled....WTF?! It said that the 30 day time-line was not reached. But! I was out of the med, how can that be?!?!
After searching around a bit and researching dates I realized with a sigh of relief (and a bit of frustration and apprehension) that I had put in the refill order yesterday and the meds were now ready to be picked up.
I am still wrestling with all of this, as you can see. The upside is that I managed to have the hard conversation with my kids night before last and they are all supportive and willing to "babysit" me when they are around. So, I will have other eyes and memories to access information from. I just wish it didn't have to be this way.
I always imagined what I would be like in old age, would I be wearing diapers, have to travel around via wheelchair? The fact that my brain would fail me so substantially never entered the equasion....
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